Hi,
I’m 15 years old (male) and I’m in 9th grade at a secondary school. I have endless free time, come home from school, eat something and actually don’t do anything for the rest of the day because I don’t know what to do. I don’t like sports, I’m in a club (karate) but I never have any motivation to go there, but I go anyway. I just don’t quit because then I would disappoint my coach etc. We have a very unforgiving coach.
Well.. I’m rather fat, eat a lot, often because I’m just bored. I have few friends to be honest. I can’t finish anything, no matter what I start I just can’t bring myself to learn it. I wanted to start programming and after 2 weeks I lost interest in it. It’s the same with everything I do. I just don’t have anything that I’m good at.
Usually when I’m bored, I make up a fantasy world with abstract characters, where everyone has their own abilities, etc., and they then fight each other, have their own empires, etc. I watch a lot of films and am actually always at home, unless I have karate or school
I often look at other people who have adventures every day, doing funny things and then I just look at myself and feel ashamed and get a lot more depressed than I already am.
where should i find action, i live in an industrial area where there is absolutely nothing. I’m shy, don’t trust myself much and I’m almost always listless and tired for no reason, even if I’ve slept for hours….
I don’t have anything like meals either. I just eat in between when I feel like it and that’s not always healthy.
I’m also becoming more and more forgetful, yesterday my mother gave me 5 euros because I wanted to go shopping, then I put it down, forgot I took it, went to the toilet and then forgot it again…
I don’t know how to go on.. my life is monotonous, boring and nothing special…. can anyone help me here??
