The Australian former tennis player Jelena Dokic revealed this Monday on his social networks that at the end of April he considered killing himself after a love breakup.
“I almost jumped from a 26th floor and ended my days. I will never forget that day, everything was cloudy, black, without sound, without light. Nothing made sense,” she explained on her Instagram account.
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“I managed to get out of that situation. I don’t know how, but I got it, ”added the former world number 4, who is now 39 years old and who accompanied her revelation with a photograph in which he is seen with eyes reddened by tears.
“The last six months have been hard, with constant tears”added the Australian born in Osijek (then Yugoslavia, now Croatia), who retired in 2014 and later became a tennis commentator for Australian networks.
“Writing these lines is not easy (…) but I do it, since I know that I am not the only one struggling. Be aware that you are not alone”, he added, before concluding his message: “I will come back stronger than ever”.
His testimony generated reactions, both in tennis and outside of it. One of them was a message of support from former Australian tennis player Mark Philippoussis, former world number 8.
In January, Jelena Dokic had announced her breakup with the man with whom she had shared her life for the past 18 years.
Dokic won six titles on the WTA tour and reached the semifinals at Wimbledon in 2000.
In her first participation in the London tournament, at the age of 16, she won by a convincing 6-2 and 6-0 against the Swiss Martina Hingis, then world number one, which earned her to be presented as a future great tennis star. , something that he did not finish achieving at all.
Jelena Dokic’s letter
04.28.2022 – I almost threw myself from the balcony of the 26th floor and took my own life.
I will never forget the day.
Everything is blurry. Everything is dark.
No tone, no image, nothing makes sense… just tears, sadness, depression, anxiety and pain.
The last six months have been tough.
It has been constant crying everywhere. From hiding in the bathroom when I’m at work to dry my tears so no one sees it to the unstoppable crying at home within my four walls it has been unbearable.
The constant feelings of sadness and pain just won’t go away and my life has been shattered.
I blame myself, I don’t think I’m worthy of love and I’m afraid.
I also know that I still have a lot to be thankful for and then I start to hate myself because by feeling like this I feel like I’m not thankful because I shouldn’t be because I want to end it all.
A vicious circle in my head.
The result: almost jumping from my 26th floor balcony on April 28.
I will never forget the day, I just wanted the pain and suffering to stop.
I pulled myself back from the brink, I don’t even know how I managed to do it. Getting professional help saved my life.
This is not easy to write, but I have always been open, honest and vulnerable with all of you and I deeply believe in the power of sharing our stories to help us get through things and help each other.
I am writing this because I know I am not the only one struggling.
Just know that you are not alone.
I’m not going to say I’m doing great right now, but I’m definitely on the road to recovery. Some days are better than others and sometimes I take a step forward and then a step back, but I’m struggling and I think I can. overcome this.
I believe in the following:
It’s okay to feel what I’m feeling
It’s okay to feel sad, just keep fighting and come back.
That’s what I’m trying to do and that’s what keeps me going.
Don’t be ashamed of what you’re feeling.
It’s okay to feel this way and you can recover. It is possible, just keep believing.
I love you all and here’s to fighting and surviving to live and see another day.
I will come back stronger than ever.
