Dayne Beams on Papa’s Death, Gambling and Drug Addiction, Retirement, Dismissed Podcast, Magpies

Beams, a 2012 All-Australian and 2010 Premiership winner, took to social media last year to unveil his mental health battle and posted a statement saying he was a “broken man” when he moved away from the AFL withdrew.

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However, it wasn’t the end of his fighting when Beams crashed into a power pole in February. An act he disclosed to the AFL in June was deliberate.

“I didn’t want it to be fatal, I didn’t want to die, but it was a scream, it was a massive scream … I needed help,” said Beams in the AFLs The last time I cried Series.

Months after the incident, Beams had an extensive interview with the Herald Sun. Podcast Dismisswhere he revealed the extent of his addiction to games and painkillers.

Beams began his career with the Magpies, who played 110 games, before moving to Brisbane in 2014 to be closer to his father, who was in remission at the time from colon cancer.

However, Philip Beams’ death in February 2018 sent the younger Beams skyrocketing as he lost his passion for AFL football.

Beams said he was “obsessed” with his father, but when his parents divorced when he was five, the separation from his father was “traumatic”.

After living together when Beams moved to Brisbane, they drove to Lions home games together.

“He’d want to talk about Footy all the way back or he’d fall asleep on the passenger side, and right then, as I was driving to the games for his passport, I looked in the passenger seat and it was just emotional. It just didn’t feel right To play games, ”Beams admitted.

The third round of the 2018 season was Beams’ 150th game, but he went into what he called a “total collapse” and was sent home injured.

It sparked a 16-week period of gambling and pain medication use that he refused to gamble.

“I still managed to play a really good footy. I honestly don’t know how I did it,” said Beams.

“I didn’t mean to play and you have to be emotionally ready and charged to leave. I was exhausted so it was difficult. “

He became addicted off the field, he said, revealing that drugs had replaced gambling as his primary vice.

“They replace one addictive behavior with another, and that is exactly what a lot of people do. It stopped when the drugs came on, ”he said.

“That was ten times harder to stop because your body is pulling back and your brain is telling you if you don’t have this drug you are going to die. It will be life or death, that’s what it feels like. “

Beams also decided to seek a deal with the Magpies that would reinvigorate his passion for the game, but after only nine games for the club, he said goodbye to the game indefinitely.

“(Footy) gave me so much pleasure for 10 years and I loved it,” he said. “I started to lose my passion for Footy when my father died.

“It really started to sizzle inside me and the main reason I went back to Victoria was to find that again… to go back to the club where I started, a great foot condition, and just try that flame and mine reignite love for Footy again. But it just didn’t work out that way.

“It didn’t become love for me anymore and everything became very, very difficult to do… I had enough. It burned me out and I made the decision to resign indefinitely. “

Beams also called his resignation “one of the worst hidden secrets” in the game, as he has already stepped into his next career and founded the studio “Health of Mind Art”.